a birthday without daddy

today is my 23rd birthday and it's a birthday without a dad. it was..........normal........because it's been a while since the last time my family celebrate my birthday and each year they would just give me angpow and grandmother would cook food that i like to eat for me and that's it. but i've not been at home on the day of my birthday on my 21st birthday and today. Today I took leave to go lepak on my birthday. one thing different is that i don't receive angpow from daddy anymore. today nobody would give me few hundred dollars to buy the things that i like myself or to greet me 'happy birthday' when i got up from bed. on my 21st birthday daddy waited for me to come home just to take a picture with him that day and he waited until he didn't go for his bath because he doesn't want to wear a short to take the picture. i think that was the last time i took a picture with daddy. that year he bought me a white gold key pendant and a necklace that i'm still wearing it today. the present he bought me on my 17th birthday, a guitar cost Rm160, i'm still keeping it and not let anyone to use it. i missed him........