God is training me

after few hard times these days, i started to realise few things and that i've grow. i think i might able to see what God's plan for me. at first i was angry at things happened because it didn't turn up the way i think it would. but come to think on the other side, i began to understand why God wanted it to be that way and it's a chance He had given me to improve. after all i am a very lazy person and i only play for fun. now i got the chance to play for real. secondly, i found myself not very much like a cry baby already. i still cry at the beginning but after a few hours or less than one hour, i had stop the crying and started to think about how to solve my problems. then i started to not to talk so much when my frens are discussing about another person so that i will not increase the gossip and i started to keep other people things to myself not to tell anyone so that no one will talk about it and create gossip again. it is really hard to do all this things because we used to think it was nothing and it wouldn't harm anyone if the victim does not know about it. but then i realised that we don't know whether what we talk or do will cause people to have a sensitive feeling for frens. we don't know when we talk about somebody else will they accidentally heard the conversation. if i were the victim, i would be hurt and sad. therefore if i do not want that to happen to me, i must not do it to anybody else and God said gossiping is no good. for once i was told that 'do not speak unpleasant with the mouth you use to worship God'.